Character is destiny
—-Heraclitus
So here’s the deal.
As one of the most critical periods of my life has already progressed for quite a while, and I remained unaware of the seriousness of the circumstance, things have not gone very well.
In fact, I should’ve realized these simple facts long ago. But due to the great weaknesses of my personality (which I consider my biggest rivalry), I have failed, after incessant attempts, to break the status quo.
Just to have a little foresight, the things I will be doing in the three months upcoming will eventually make a big difference in my life–it shall take on very different journeys, which are totally up to me to decided which ones to step my foot on.
It does not require much, indeed, only a few month of full devotion is enough to take me to where I’ve been dreaming for. For a person who has never put 100% effort on anything he desired for, it may be very difficult, but what’s more important is the fact that I shall not allow myself to face yet the biggest failure of my life.
Shall my pride be my utmost motivation that drives me to strive for greatness? It is yet to be witnessed.
Enough ABSURDITY has been demonstrated through my own actions. At this moment I cannot help but to ask myself these questions: where has all your pride gone? And since when have you given up trying, stand reticent watching others surpassing you.
I still remember when years ago the mere sight of anyone trying to compete with me is intolerable; that I’ve stayed up all night, reading under the dim light, longing for knowledge; and the expression of arrogance, not from the pathetic pride that’s left in me, but from what has been achieved.
Another vow is made; another period of struggling for changes have begun, another chance, the last chance, is given. Grasp it tightly in your fists, the road to success and glory awaits you.
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